I'm back! Sorry for the too-long break. I promise I have not
forgotten about this and was in fact taking the time off to come up with
new ideas not only for this blog, but also for other ways in which I
can make an impact on the BPI community. More to come on that soon
hopefully.
Well I am officially a college student. It
is the end of my first week of classes, the end of my second week living
away from home and in an entirely new place. Before leaving, all anyone
said is how excited they were for me and how the next four years will
be the best of my life. I will meet my best friends and make my best
memories and have such interesting classes, etc. Now obviously I believe
that all to be true, but I think it's kinda funny that everyone
neglects to remember or mention what the beginning is like. Because it's
incredibly weird. You're all excited to get to college and you have all
these big expectations in your head about how amazing your life is
going to be now that you're living away from your parents and you're
surrounded by cool people and great opportunities... And then you have
the same conversation over and over with every new person you meet.
"what's your name?"
"where are you from?"
"what dorm are you in?"
"what classes are you taking?"
"what do you want to major in?"
You
become this weird version of yourself where you're not yet ready to be
as weird or sarcastic as you truly are with these total strangers.
You're meeting all these new people but no one's really being themselves
so you start to question the point. You lose yourself a little bit and
feel overwhelmed by the lack of familiar faces, familiar routine, a
familiar place. It's all so uncomfortable.
Now that's
not to say I haven't been having a great time. Not to say I haven't met
amazing people or I haven't been really weird or sarcastic sometimes.
Not to say I haven't been happy or excited or really interested in my
classes. I just think it's extremely strange that when you talk to
people about going to college, no one warns you about that first week.
No one warns you that you won't be yourself that first week. No one
reassures you that it won't be hard to find her again, nor will it take
long.
Testament to this strange beginning is the funny
fact that somehow my brachial plexus injury has yet to come up with
anyone here. I realized the other day that literally no one here knows
about it. I haven't purposely avoided talking about it, I just haven't
been forced to mention it yet. Though the real Lise has definitely risen
to the surface based on my new friends' comments on my sarcasm, a piece
of me is accidentally and unnecessarily hidden away still. I'll keep
you updated on how and when it ends up coming up.
I'm
happy to be back and ready to get messages about anyone's summer or
about exciting news or just a hello! Can't wait to hear from you guys
again :)
Welcome to my blog about how I have learned to live with my BPI. But this blog isn't for me. Everything on here is to help any kids growing up with a brachial plexus injury like I did. I didn't have anyone to give me tips on how to do daily activities and now I've realized how much that could have helped me. That's the purpose of this blog--to make your lives easier.
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